1. I’m at my best in the early morning. False
2. I start each day with a healthy breakfast. False
3. I’m always sure to get at least 7 hours of sleep each night. False
4. I enjoy my job. True
5. I get along with most everyone. True
6. I’m looking forward to the new season of tv shows this year. True
7. I make sure I take some time for myself every day. True

Honestly I’m not against models who make nude pictures if it’s based on art & beauty, not just mere pornography. From what I’ve seen, Tiara’s pictures are beautifully taken. She has a nice figure & she looks very sensual. I don’t see why people here are so bitchy when Miss Indonesia Club sent Artika Sari Devi to attend Miss Universe election. Well, now they can go bitchy again about Tiara, because that’s the only thing they can do. Being hypocrite in public while they enjoy looking for pornography over the internet & jack off. How embarassing!

Dear Andrew/Brian/CJ/Cin/James/Karen/Marie/Susan/Nicole/Aya/730,

I have stopped double-posting my blog entries in lifebytes. blogspirit.com and I have been started writing in my newblog: http://***.com since September 3, 2005 as currently I don’t feel like sharing everything with everyone anymore.

I haven’t had a chance to edit the WordPress ready-made template and moved the blogrolls, links etc. to the new blog. I hope I can do that as soon as I can get on-line from a computer.

There are some protected entries which I don’t want to share with anyone but myself (that’s what I like the most from WordPress), but maybe there will be entries in the future that I might like to share with the 11 of you - and I will put “(Friends Only)” after the entry’s title. And the password for those entries will be: ***. I might also e-mail any of you if there were entries I’d like to share with 1-2 persons. Please do not share the password with anyone else. Thank you.

Have a great week end.

Connie

CBBC Newsround Online has spoken to some experts and put together tips about what you should do if something you’ve seen or heard in the news is worrying you or giving you nightmares.

If you’re worried because of something you’ve heard in the news:

Always check the facts if you hear a nasty story - it might not be true or it could be exaggerated.
Remember that things in the news are often in the news because they don’t happen very often.
Discuss the news with your friends or chat about it on a message board. You’ll be reassured that you’re not the only one worried.
You could also talk to your teacher about it - maybe you could have a class discussion which would help you understand the issue better.

If you’re having nightmares or trouble sleeping because of something you’ve heard in the news:

Tell your mum or dad - reassurance from them will make you feel much better.
Try talking about your nightmare or even drawing it. This will help you to confront your fear.
Surround yourself with things that make you feel secure at night - even if it is your old teddy bear that you keep hidden from your mates!
Try to balance the news you read. If you read a bad story then try and read a happy one before you go to bed.

1. in your house, what is the most useful appliance or gadget you own/use?
Computer.

2. in your house, what is the least useful appliance or gadget you own/use?
Radio.

3. think about your kitchen appliances & cabinets - do you love or hate your kitchen now?
Kind of hate it, because I want to have a better furnaced kitchen.

4. what room in your house needs to be cleaned the most, and why?My bedroom because that’s where I spend most of time at home.

5. do you know anyone who is a hoarder or serious pack rat, to the point where it affects their lives?
So far, I don’t.

6. in your place, which room would you love to have completely redone to your specifications, money being no object?
My bedroom. I want it in black & white color, with a red lamp on the bedside tables.

7. what would you have done to this room? give us brief details - construction, furniture, style, colours…
White wall, black wood furnitures, brown-carpeted floor, well… a modern-minimalist style, I guess.
8. are you a fan of redecorating/renovating shows?
Yes. I love watching “Bedah Rumah” on Sundays. The show is about how they redecorate/renovate poor people’s houses to be better & worth staying in. They paint the walls, fix the roof & parts of the house that need to be repaired, & even change the furnitures. It touches my heart very much.

Gue tanya sama Paula gimana pembicaraan sama Chief kemaren. Ternyata Chief nyuruh dia resign karena Paula dianggap pemicu keributan di studio beberapa hari yang lalu antara Ibu Eka & Pak Edmond. Sebenarnya sih ya… keributan itu gara2 ketidaksenangan anak2 terhadap manajemen Pak Edmond yang dari awal agak terlalu memaksakan. Maksa gitu loh, hanih… Jadi kekhawatiran Paula soal kemungkinan dia nggak dikasih ijin itu cuma pemicu aja.

Anyway, Paula nanya ke Chief atas dasar apa dia disuruh resign. Kata Chief, karena Paula disinyalir sebagai main reason penyebab bentrok. Gila aja! Katanya atas dasar perkataan Ibu Eka tempo hari waktu pertemuan sama Pak Yudi, makanya dia menyimpulkan seperti itu. Padahal waktu itu Ibu Eka hanya jelasin kenapa sampe Paula nggak turun liputan.. Yah, menurut Paula udah diputar-balikkan deh. Trus dia mengalihkan pembicaraan ke hal lain. Dia nggak mau bahas masalah itu, atau bukti, atau dkk dll dsb dst-nya… Pokoknya dia nyuruh Paula bikin surat pengunduran diri, as soon as possible(!) demi kebaikan semua orang. Apa coba?!

Sempet gedeg juga dengernya. Aneh deh! Gue bener2 nggak ngerti. Orang2 nggak seperti tampaknya - & I don’t like it! Paula akhirnya mutusin mau ketemu sama Pak Yudi hari ini untuk bicarain masalah itu. Gue suruh dia kabarin gue karena gue pengen tau dari sudut pandang Pak Yudi kayak apa..

dan hari ini terpaksa gue syuting continuity. AAaaaAAaarrrrRrrggggHHhh! Nyebelin deh! Gue ambil baju beberapa pasang di Banana, trus syuting sama Echa. Jeleknya ampun2an!! Intonasi gue berantakan, ngomong suka kecepetan, pokoknya sungguh mati malu2in bangsa dan negara! Tapi semua maksain gue belajar. Deasy, Ibu Ella, Echa, semua semua semua… katanya gue masih harus banyak belajar. Yang paling maksa tuh Deasy sama Ibu Ella, padahal gue udah nggak sanggup jiwa dan raga gitu…

Gue bisa disuruh bikin lines untuk continuity, narasi, berita, dll… tapi jangan suruh gue jadi presenter! Gue sadar diri dong. Warna suara gue nggak bagus, intonasinya sungguh buruk bukan buatan, udah gitu ternyata gue nggak bagus gitu di kamera! Pleaaassseee.. cari orang laen aja! Presenter/model pro, at least someone way way way much better than moi deh…

Tapi tetap aja gue dipaksa rekaman untuk continuity 3 acara… Top News Sore, Kota, sama Manado Kriminal. Dan jadilah rekaman2 tersebut! Nggak tau hasilnya gimana, masih harus direvisi sama Ibu Ella. Kita besok disuruh dateng jam stengah dua siang untuk persiapan siaran hari Senin.

Then, gue dianterin Roy Renald ke mall pake motor. Kita sempet ngobrolin nasib Paula di jalan. Sama2 nggak tau ntar jadinya kayak apa… apalagi Pak Edmond mau tambah ‘armada’ presenter, reporter dan cameramen. Gue nggak ngerti apa crew ditambah, apa kita bakal dieliminasi satu2… Terserah deh, gue sih asik2 aja. Kalo pun setelah 3 bulan gue ‘diistirahatkan’, nggak pa2… anggap aja 3 bulan gue udah tambah pengalaman kerja di dunia broadcasting gitu loh, hanih.. :p Lumayan, buat bagus2in CV kalo ngelamar kerja di toko atau pabrik lol

Eh, tapinya… tau nggak? Kan gue pergi ke salon dianterin Pak Edmond dan Ibu Ella pake mobil Pak Bonny. All the way I got the feeling like going out with Mom & Dad… you know, that kind of feeling… Gini loh, di mobil kita tuh akrab banget. Ketawa2, becanda,… Git juga waktu mereka jemput gue dari salon. Gue sih sambil baca2 tabloid gosip yang dibeliin sama Anthony. Sebelum ke studio, kita mampir dulu ambil makan siang buat anak2 studio di tempat jual nasi kuning dekat sekolah gue dulu, Eben Haezar. Mereka ngobrol2, becanda2 gitu,.. tau2 gue seperti salah dengar. Tapi gue nangkep Ibu Ella manggil Pak Edmond, “papa…” Tapi trus next line manggilnya udah “bapak” lagi… I was like, “huh?” dalam hati. Cuman gue sok biasa aja, walau dalam hati menjerit… wataaaaawwwwww!!!

Mending gue no comment aja udah…

Karena…

Kemaren akhirnya gue masuk kantor. Ngurus kuliah nggak bisa karena kantor kemahasiswaan tutup, jadi gue baru akan bayar kuliah dari semester sekian tahun yang lampau sampe sekarang hari Senin pagi2 banget nanti - setelah gue nge-chek di kantor kemahasiswaan atau kantor pusat.
Jam 1 gue ketemu Roy Renald & Paula di rumah Jerry dekat SMPN 1, ngobrolin tentang kantor sebentar, trus kita sama2 brangkat ke studio. Sampe sana kebetulan Pak Edmond & Ibu Ella blom ada, nggak tau kemana, jadi gue mondar-mandir aja situ nyapa anak2.

Akhirnya gue diajak Echa ngeliput di Polsek Tikala. Sempat dikit adu mulut sama Yar soalnya kan Yar bilang gue disuruh tunggu Pak Edmond di situ karena dia mo ngomong, Echa bilang dia udah dapet ijin ajak gue jalan seandainya gue udah sampe & Pak Edmond belom balik.. Aduh, bingung deh gue liatnya! Ya udah, gue ngalah aja.. pergi sama Echa. Eh di jalan tau2 ketemu mobil Pak Edmond.. disuruh lah gue balik ke studio lagi. Sampe studio, Yar nyengir aja gitu liat gue dateng.

Lantas gue diajak ngobrol sama Pak Edmond - dan Ibu Ella - di dalam kantornya. Dikeroyok gitu…!

Aduh gue samasekali nggak berkutik, ngomong malah jadi berantakan… Mereka nanya ke gue siapa yang ngomong kalo minta ijin bakal disuruh resign, ya berkaitan sama ijin kuliah dan ngurus skripsi… Gue berusaha sebisanya menjelaskan kalo Paula tuh bukannya apa2, dia cuma sekilas aja ngomong kalo seandainya dia udah nggak bisa bagi waktu kerja sama skripsi, dia terpaksa harus resign. But she didn’t intend to do so, soalnya kan surat ijin aja blom diajukan ke Pak Edmond.

Nah trus Pak Edmond sama Ibu Ella bilang gue boleh kok ngurus skripsi, makanya bikin surat ijin supaya jam gue balik ke studio tuh bisa lebih jelas.. jadi ada tertulisnya gitu. Dari situ gue dapet kesan bahwa sebenarnya nggak apa2 kita ngurus kuliah/skripsi, asal ajukan surat ijin dulu…

Setelah itu gue diajak ngomong berdua sama Ibu Ella di dalam ruangan studio. Dia jelasin ke gue soal hubungannya sama Pak Edmond (mungkin dia udah tau anak2 curiga) dan gue bisa ngerti sih “kedekatan” dia sama Pak Edmond. Mungkin karena sempat kerja bareng dalam sebuah proyek waktu masa Pak Edmond jadi salah satu tim suksesinya Teddy Kumaat, Ibu Ella bisa lebih deket secara… apa ya… bisa seperti kayak temen gitu, ketimbang sama rekan kerja atau atasan.

Menurut pengamatan gue sih, ada saat2 dimana Ibu Ella ke Pak Edmond seperti bawahan ke atasan, dan ada saat2 mereka kayak temenan aja gitu… becanda, cela2an,… akrab gitu deh. Dan pas kita masih ngobrol, tau2 ‘Ayah’ dateng. Ayah tuh suami Ibu Ella. Dia suka manggil gitu ke suaminya. Entah kebetulan ke situ atau disuruh Ibu Ella untuk menetralisir gosip yang beredar tentang Pak Edmond dan Ibu Ella.

Anyway, karena kemaren masih dalam persiapan program2 acara yang akan naik Senin, gue di sana praktis nggak ngapa2in. Waktu sore gue mau pulang bareng Opo, baru gue nyadar Paula nggak ada. Gue tanya anak2, Devin bilang ke gue dia udah anterin pulang pake motor dan waktu itu Paula nangis! Jelas gue panik gitu loh!! Gue ngerasa apapun penyebabnya, pasti ada sangkut-pautnya sama interogasi Pak Edmond ke gue. Takutnya dia salah tangkap maksud gue, atau biarpun gue udah berusaha jelasin sebenarnya, tetap aja Paula dijadikan penyebab kasus keributan di studio tempo hari - waktu gue nggak masuk.

Gue telfon Paula, dia bilang nggak ada apa2. Dia pulang cepet karena udah ijin sama Ibu Ella mau urus skripsi. So I thought it was okay…

Tapi ternyata…

1. On a scale of 1-5 (5 being the highest), how important is being in love to you?
4. I always love being in love, but it has ups & downs.
2. Ever had an unrequited love?
Yeah, a couple times.
3. Should your past be an open book to your significant other and vice-versa?
Versa. I hardly open my book
4. Can you really forgive AND forget?
I forgive but hardly forget because there are things in life you just can’t forget. You have to move on & try your best not to think about it again.
5. What are the surefire relationship killers in your book?
If the feeling’s not there anymore, then no explanation is needed. It’s black & white.

1. Soothing sound: Wind, raindrops, waves.
2. Comfort food: Salad, sunny side-up,
3. Relaxing music: Jazz, instrument..
4. Gentle voice: (thinking).
5. Calming smell: Perfume.

See meme here.